More On Edward & Jacob

Am I any closer to solving my dilemma of who I love the most, Edward or Jacob?

Nope.

But I will tell you that all this introspection has really got me in touch with what drives my feelings. It's not like it's a new thing for me, I pretty much set around thinking all the time, :D I'm an introverted kind of gal. I guess that's why you are reading this now. I formulate thoughts on something and it feels like it might bubble over if I don't get it out. Hence, blogging.

So anyway, back to Jacob and Edward. I'm reading Eclipse now and all this closeness between Edward and Bella is like a fix to a junkie. I can't get enough of it. And yet, when I put the book down to do annoyingly unavoidable stuff like, GO TO WORK, I find my mind drifting to Jacob.

Funny, isn't it? The story of Bella and Edward is what drives us all to turn those pages with vampire quick reflexes. Jacob's character may be considered by some readers as just a means to add friction and conflict to the story. But to me, he's that warm and fuzzy thing (literally) in the story that worms his way into my heart. His character, more so than any other besides Bella perhaps, grows (again, literally) and becomes more than what he starts out as. He's very human in that.

Through trial and triumph, his character develops. But he is always true to himself and looks at life through the eyes of an optimist. The light of his infectious happiness is addictive itself. Bella refers to Jacob as her own personal sun and I think that's an apt description of him. He has an undeniable pull for anyone lucky enough to be close to him, as any celestial body should. And I think that is one reason Jacob always nudges Edward out in my daydreams. I'm drawn in by his light, endearing, happy contentedness no matter how much my X chromosomes may demand that I yearn for the dark, complicated, brooding one.

These are all qualities that a real person could have. And even though he is no less fictitious than Edward, there is something inherently attainable about Jacob.

He may be a werewolf but his love is within the realm of believability. Edward's love is perfect and unerring. Edward's love is like him, to good to be true. Too good to even pretend to be true. And in that perfection lies the crux. His love is flawed in it's very nature. I find it hard to wrap my brain around such total consuming devotion. To my fantasizing mind, it's not even plausible to imagine such a love for myself. Because although I may be able to imagine a vampire or werewolf lover, I just can't seem to trick my head into believing anyone, human or otherwise, could honestly express feelings like Edward has for Bella.

Maybe that says more about me than it does about the love itself. Maybe it's a sign of some inner self deprecating notion. Maybe it's a sign of self contempt. ...I think I like me. I think it's more to do with my lack of ever finding what I've been looking for. I've had relationships. But I've never experienced any relationship that complimented or completed me in the fashion that Edward and Bella's love completes them.

And I know now that that has something to do with why I get so emotionally involved with the books. And why I feel so destitute every time I finish reading them. I am elated while reading. My mind pushes to the side the fact that I yearn for that kind of love and will never find it. Instead I focus on enjoying my voyeuristic view into this most coveted of fictional lives. I stave off the heartache of reality until the end, when I have no choice but to evaluate my own life in comparison, whether I want to or not. It just sort of happens.

Freshly after reading the saga, it's painfully obvious that I feel like something is missing. Not in a panicky kind of way either. In the sense that although I am totally content, I know that my experiences would be heightened if I had that perfect of soul mates to share each day with. I may step onto the porch to enjoy a beautiful moonlit night, or wonder at the invigorating electricity of a rainy day. No matter what, all things would be better if I could share it with an Edward, or especially a Jacob.

That's all the insight (ha ha) I have for right now. But be warned, my emotions run the gamut every other minute and I'm always on the precipice of an epiphany. So tomorrow's post may contradict this one completely.

Until next time, dream on fellow Twilighters.

New Moon Wolf Pack Latest Picture

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Watch Entertainment Tonight New Moon Videos Here!

Aw, heck. I am going to go ahead and post the 2 Entertainment Tonight videos on the blog here so you can enjoy them in their original sized splendor!

New Video Footage from Entertainment Tonight

New Video Footage from Entertainment Tonight, including cast interview clips and sneak peeks from New Moon has been posted to the His Amber Eyes blog static content. They are located on the right column of the page.

Stop by to view both videos!

Update: I'm sorry but I removed those videos from the right side nav. They were slowing down the page load time considerably. But those 2 videos can be found in this post.

6 of Jacob Half a Dozen of Edward

Er, you know the old saying '6 of one, half a dozen of the other'. That's where I'm at right now in regards to picking a camp. Am I a wolf girl or vamp chick? I thought for sure during the first 2/3s of New Moon that I was leaning toward Team Jacob. But when Bella rescues Edward in Volterra, Italy, his love is so consuming and intoxicating and even more focused and on fire than before he broke her heart that it's extremely hard to resist him. It's no wonder women all over the world are enamoured of Edward.

How can we not be?? He's just so committed ...and there. I love him, I swear it. He melts my heart. His attentiveness is addictive instead of smothering. There was something triumphant about his return. I realized that throughout the whole book, on some level, it's what I was actually looking forward to. It kind of snuck up on me.

It seems impossible that Stephenie Meyer conceived of such a love, I've never heard of anything on this level in the real world, unfortunately. I can believe she is a devout Mormon. A concept of love so pure has to come from a devotedly loving mind.

Okay, just thought I'd share with you my state of mind as I continue traveling on the wonderful journey of the fictitious lives that touch me, and all of us, in such a real way.

More later Twilighters.

It's Happening Again

Hey fellow Twilighters. Just a quick note to let you know that yes, it's happening to me again. The hopelessness and obsession picked right back up where it left off before. There should be warning labels on these books!

Oddly enough, it didn't start during Twilight. It started during New Moon, which has me believing that I might fancy Jacob a little more than I do Edward.

~GASP!~

Please don't lynch me. I'm still muddling through my reaction to the books this time. I'll formulate a more accurate diagnosis a while later after I sort it all out. But for now I am seriously wondering if I'm a Team Jacob.

EW.com's 15 New Faces in 'New Moon'

Please see the link below to view picture and profiles of 15 exciting new additions to the cast of New Moon.

EW.com's 15 New Faces in New Moon

Some you've already heard about. But this is a tidy compilation of who's who so far. I am very please by the list. I'm more excited about the movie now than before! I know you will be too. I believe a few things are going on here.

1. Chris Weitz must have some connections and fine reputation in Hollywood to score some of the names he has for New Moon.

2. The powerful success of Twilight has paved the way for New Moon in that the saga has drawn the attention of especially talented actors.

3. There were smart decisions on the part of director and casting agent as the La Push gang and other Quileute characters are comprised of mostly unknown Native American and First Nation actors. Majorly cool.

The mixture of respected, known actors and relatively unknown talent will make for a kick ass movie going experience. The motley crew that comprises the Volturi couldn't be more impressive.

I'm just jazzed about the whole thing, if you can't tell. Additions that I am most eagerly awaiting are:

1. Michael Sheen as Aros. Michael in day to day life is a regular looking sort. But he has that special 'Gary Oldman' quality. He is a chameleon. He is able to morph himself both physically and inherently into whatever character he's portraying. He's very intuitive as an actor, and that makes him stunning to watch. You'll love him, I promise.


2. Graham Greene as Quileute tribal leader Harry Clearwater. He's perfect! Who doesn't love this guy? He's got the most expressive face. He looks introspective, wise and kind. Remember him as Kicking Bird in Dances With Wolves? I loved him in that. He was also in Die Hard: With A Vengeance. ...I loved him in that too. He's always a great choice. If for no other reason, I'd watch this movie to see him!


3. Cameron Bright signed on to play Jane's twin Alec. You may not recognize his name immediately but you'll recognize his face. He usually plays characters that are disturbing (Birth), scary (Godsend) or other-worldly (Ultraviolet). He has an ethereal quality, especially for someone so young. I think he'll do wonderful as Alec. He has all the right stuff.


4. Tinsel Korey as Emily, beautiful but scarred fiancee of Sam Uley. Emily is definitely one of the more intriguing non-central characters of New Moon. I admit I've never heard of Tinsel Korey before but that is okay, it's good to see new faces in movies. It's like meeting the character for the first time and not being distracted because you know the actor from previous works. Also, Tinsel Korey is just plain beautiful. She is exactly as I imagined Emily. She's perfect.


I am pleased by the cast over all. I just wanted to point out a few actors that I'm ecstatic over and that got me looking forward to New Moon more than I could have ever hoped to.

New Moon is going to rock our socks.

Michael Sheen Joins the New Moon Cast

Gah! Oh Man!! I'm really on board now. One of my favorite actors Michael Sheen, recently starred as Lucian in Underworld: Rise of the Lycans, has been chosen to play Aros, one of the Volturri leaders. Yay!

I can't wait!!

Pictured: Michael Sheen as Lucian in Underworld: Rise of the Lycans

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Wolf Pack Photo

Here's a look at the updated wolf pack in New Moon:

Paul (Alex Meraz), Sam and Embry (Kiowa Gordon) of New Moon.

New Moon Set Photo of Rob

Just a quick note to tell you to go google New Moon set photos. I just did and I can tell you already that Edward is going to break twice as many hearts this time around as he did in Twilight. One major contributor to that fact is the completely different (and subtle) direction the vampire make up has taken.

One thing that irked me about Twilight was the pan make-up, crusty fake look of the vampires faces. Instead of looking simply pale, the Cullens looked dead, or ready for Broadway. I never understood why, since other vampire movies don't seem to have the trouble making their stars have a believable undead pallor.

I'm liking Chris Weitz more every day. He's at least perfected the vamp look. And it makes Edward look so much more genuine and lovely.

Sigh, like I needed any more reason to yearn for him...

Stephen King on Stephenie Meyer!

Calm down Twilighters, it's not as dirty as it sounds. But it is pretty bad. During a recent interview, epic popular writer Stephen King was asked his opinion of current chart topping writers, in particular J. K. Rowling and Stephenie Meyer. In Stephen King's eloquent style, he surmised that "Stephenie Meyer can’t write worth a darn. She’s not very good.”

Now Steve, you are breaking my heart. I only hope that if I am ever lucky enough to have anything published that my style either appeals to you or you never read it. I can only imagine what Stephenie thinks of your comments. Although, I doubt she puts as much weight on your meandering talky-talk as I do. For I've grown up loving and respecting your work, and have been inspired by it. However, I will tell you, dear Mr. King, that I have never once read one of your books that I felt I couldn't put down (Although Cell came close). As is the case with Stephenie Meyer's Twilight saga. And not one book in particular, take your pick; Twilight, New Moon, Eclipse or Breaking Dawn. I had to have more, couldn't stop! Her writing is so addictive that as I neared the end of the saga, I (like a LOT of Twilighters) become melancholy at the thought of having no more of Stephenie's wonderful words to consume.

I am surprised that Steven King would be so hasty to write off Meyer's writing ability with such finality. Especially since he was considered a hack by many critics for a long time before finally gaining the respect he deserves. I would think he'd show some empathy for new writers, having been denied it himself.

Why is he saying that Stephenie's not a very good writer? I have my suspicions. I wonder if in his old age he's become a snobby elitist who sets high atop his mountain of money and picks apart the efforts of others writers. Maybe when he says she's not a good writer, he's referring to technical aspects of her writing. You know, the stuff that no one cares about except other elitist writers. For example, he may be saying that there are grammatical errors. Or he may be focusing on sentence structure - Meyer's does have an annoying habit of incessantly using em dashes throughout her prose - or maybe even the meandering uncohesiveness of plot development.

What King is overlooking is that 17 million (and counting) readers can't all be wrong. Meyer's writing has merit if so many people get enjoyment from it time and time again. Her writing evokes such loyalty that her fans are somewhat, um, fanatical. And we're not just talking about 'the girls' Stephen mentioned. There are boys, Twilight Moms, twenty somethings, thirty somethings; heck there's 40, 50, 60+ somethings out there pining over Edward, Jacob and the world of Forks, WA.

So, in summation, I have to ask: Is Stephen King saying that all of us who love the prose of a writer he thinks "can’t write worth a darn" are literary cretins? That's kind of how I feel; like my love is baseless in his eyes.

Not cool, Steve, not cool.

Jackson Rathbone on Criminal Minds 'Conflicted'

Hi Twilighters! I was watching the Criminal Minds episode entitled 'Conflicted' Wednesday and boy was I surprised when I saw Jackson Rathbone! Criminal Minds is an excellent show that portrays a group of highly intelligent FBI agents who use profiling to identify serial killer 'unsubs' and catch them.

Jackson gave a stellar performance as Adam Jackson. He truly was excellent. I'm not just saying that as a biased Twilight fan. I was impressed and my first thought was that he really should have had more lines in Twilight (like in the book, hello). His character in CM, Adam Jackson, is a worker in a hotel in Fort Lauderdale during spring break 2009. Someone starts killing off hunky college dudes in the hotel where Adam works. The team travels south to figure it out.

Here's a link to the full episode in case you missed it!! Criminal Minds: Conflicted

Here's an interview with Jackson on the set of Criminal Minds. He talks about how he got the part, why he likes the show and other interesting tidbits. But invariably, the conversation gets turned toward talk of Twilight :)

Just Some Thoughts

As I read Twilight some more, I realized how much I liked the Cullen house, and how very different the movie house was. I remember thinking that the movie house was very cold feeling and sort of corporate like. I didn't love it at all. Some houses have such character that they become a staple of what makes a movie work. I love the old colonial feel of the house in the book. If you want to see an example of what I mean, watch the movie Just Like Heaven (one of my all time faves!). Reese Witherspoon's character's apartment building in that film was one of my favorite things about the flick.

I was also reading where Edward explains Carlisle's early life after becoming a vampire. About how he never fed on humans and he is so pure of heart that it took Edward 10 years to decide to go against him and try hunting humans. I got to thinking, I'd really like to read a story about Carlisle 'falling off the wagon'. I'd really just like to see him get nasty, take out a few humans. Then deal with the aftermath and his remorse and so on.. Would be interesting I believe.

I'd also like to see a story about Alice and Jasper. To me, next to Bella and Edward, these two are the most interesting. I love Jasper, it's no secret and I love Alice too (albeit for different reasons). Jasper is one hot Southern gent of a vamp and I'd like all the gory details of their relationship and how they came together the first time when Alice was waiting on him. Also, maybe Alice's history behind being turned could be expounded upon. One thing's for sure, I'd rather read about anyone other than that freaky relationship brewing between Jacob and Renesmee. I don't care to go there ever. I couldn't care less to ever hear that tale. It's creepy to me. I love Jacob dearly and I'd like to see him with someone else. Maybe he meets a lady a little older than him, like late twenties.. I'll have to give it some thought to figure out what kind of woman would be suitable for my Jacob.

That's all for now, I'll yak at you later my fellow Twilighters!!

Caius Role Has Been Cast

Just read that the role of Caius will be played by an English actor named Jamie Campbell-Bower. I confess I've never heard of him but as soon as I saw his picture, I liked him. He's got very alluring eyes, impish looking. But he really reminds me of Jackson Rathbone (Jasper Hale). But maybe I just need to see more pictures of him to get a feel for how he really looks.

One thing that bothers me a little is that he's only 20 years old. I've always felt the Volturri ring leaders were more mature than that. I know in vamp years they are way old but I just thought they lived to be quite a bit older in human years. Maybe I read it wrong. Or maybe they are sticking to casting super young actors to keep the youngsters interested. Either way, I'm okay with this choice. Keep up the good work!!

It was a Rainy Day in Forks Cambridge

Okay, so I'm treating this reading of Twilight like a new lover, taking it slow and easy. Enjoying every moment, feeling every sensation. I headed out to my car for lunch today and read a few pages of one of my favorite parts; the drive home from Port Angeles. When I got outside to my surprise it was raining, instead of the crappy snow that was predicted.

I am a lover of rain. I mean like, think of the person you know who really likes the rain. I'm ten times as bad as that guy (unless you know me, of course). Blame it on my Scottish roots, or my 'sunny' disposition :) or my preoccupation with all things goth. Any way you slice it, a storm cloud on the horizon will always bring a smile to my face.

I've always felt like when it's raining, there is a electric charge in the air. I feel like it's easier to breath. I just feel more alive and ...content. I have different feelings associated with different types of rainstorms. But more than anything I like a straight down, soaking, drenching, non-stop all day rain. Today's rain wasn't quite that good, but as seldom as we've been getting it lately, I'll take anything I can get (yet, another parallel to my sex life. Hardy har har.)

So I get out to the car and dive into my book. Here I am literarily and literally submerged in a rainy world. It makes it that much easier to live the story, to put myself in Bella's shoes. The temperature in the car was kind of on the cool side and that was a constant reminder of Edward's beautiful, frigid skin. The comparison coaxingly elicited thrilling shivers from me.

Needless to say, that half hour went by WAY to quickly. Call it a mini mental holiday. A moment in time immortalized in my mind as one perfect Twilight reading experience.

Nice Jacket

First New Moon Poster a Fake? Who Cares, it's Rob!

Don't know if this is real or not, but some sources are saying this is a preliminary poster put out by Summit Entertainment for New Moon. People who think it's a fake are saying that Edward would never go bare chested like in this poster. But I say he would (and does) when he very nearly walks into the center square to reveal himself in Italy.

This poster looks to me like it would be a scene from that part of the story, when Rob is in a shadowed alley in Volterra waiting to step out into the sunlight at 'high noon'.

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Also read that Kristen Stewart stated in a recent interview that Summit Entertainment is planning to go ahead with film Breaking Dawn, as long as interest in the franchise remains.

Seems like a given.

A Little TWILIGHT Experiment...

Hiya! I've decided to conduct a little experiment. I haven't read any of the Twilight books since before Twilight the movie opened. And here lately I've genuinely been missing it; the words, the details of Forks, nuances of Edwards looks explained, all the stuff not included in the movie.

I got Twilight out last night, right before I went to bed. Understand, I have a cold right now and the pinnacle of feeling crappy was around 9 PM last night. So, I get Twilight out, and I read the prologue, planning to start the book the next day..

Then I go ahead and read the first page. I felt miserable but I just couldn't tear myself away from those alluring words. Before I knew it, I was 60 pages in. I barely was able to set it aside and finally succumb to the rest I needed.

So I guess that no matter how many times you read the books, the words and phrases so artfully strung together by Mrs. Meyer will always have an intoxicating pull on the readers.

I am glad it's been so long since I've read them though because the details are unfamiliar to me again. Oh sure I remember the story and my favorite parts, but all the details are new again. I love that, even though I'll never be able to experience it like the first time I read it.

I've noticed something after having seen Twilight the movie so many times. Now when I read anything in the book that is in the movie too, I keep picturing the scene in the movie. It's somewhat annoying to me! I loved how my imagination filled in the blanks and built all the minute substances and situations. I am trying hard to push those images out of my head. Because although I love the movie, it's Catherine Hardwicke's vision of Forks and how it all went down there, not mine. I want my details back.

I'll keep posting on things I notice. I'm curious to see if I'm so heatedly drawn back into Edward's world with wild abandon, totally forsaking my real life to stick my nose in a book. The fact that there is a (very real) chance that that may happen is a little bit scary. But honestly, it's more exciting than anything and I'm looking forward to it!

Bring on the achy yearning for that glittering vampire manboy!

Forgot one!

Imagine rolling over to this:
GOOD MORNING!!!!!!!

Don't you believe it, Twilighters!

What a sadistically cruel April Fool's joke! It's been circulating around the Internet on blogs and other sources that RPattz won't return to New Moon as Edward, instead to be replaced by (steady there, gag reflex) Zac Efron. I will spare you the rant on why I really can't stand this Zac Efron character.. (Focus, self) Okay. You may have read this, or varying stories about Rob doing a Houdini, but don't you believe it.

Rob isn't crazy enough to abandon his sweet gig and we love him for it. No matter what revolving door policy Summit Entertainment has for directors, or budget stinginess they may display, they ain't gonna mess with the smartest decision they've made in regards to bringing the saga to the screen. And that is the magic of casting Robert Pattinson as Edward. That right there is the cash cow. Any way you slice it, he's the draw. Tell me your heart didn't beat a little faster the first time his angelic visage graced the screen.

Sure I can't wait to see how Taylor Lautner looks after pumping iron like a maniac for 8 months and I especially wanna see what the Volturri turn out like but one thing is certain: I mostly cannot wait to get a glimpse of Edward again. There are lines uttered by Edward in the book that I've dreamed to hear spoken aloud. Sigh...

Now for you're pleasure (and mine), have a gander of RPattz in the April issue of GQ:

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Gah!!! I'm dead. I've died of sheer eye candy pleasure. RIP me.

The Welcome Mat For You

Hi all, was surfin' and found this. It made me think of you all!